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"To perceive is to suffer"

But I would rather have a life of perception.
A life without it is blind, and unable to change.
A life without change, is not worth living.
Give me perception over ignorance.
Give me suffering over joy.

jake

I am kinda touchy today XD
took a shower XD!
so my hair is WAY too curly ...
need to straighten it...
going to grow it out really long...
like... middle of my back.
[:

>>
FXUXCXKXIXNXG KNAT!
>>
grr.

lawlz
Here is a quick picture of my brow :)




I've been lazy recently, need to shower and do my hair again XD

Got my brow pierced :)
I like it a lot. look great :D

hurt a bit...
Lisa had some trouble putting the needle in...
so she had to back it out a bit and shove it back in...
OW
XD
but it was worth the week of trouble and stress XD

thought I don't think I will be making any scary/crazy faces on any photos...
(as seen on DA at: jakejester.deviantart.com)

or you can visit my myspace at www.myspace.com/haxiv
Thanks

does nobody have them these days?
I mean, jeez!

I go through my whole day with my morals as my stop signs and street lanes..

but seems like no one else does.
makes me mad.
world would be better without people like that.

--
so anyways, I have been looking at cameras...
I need a good one... Rebel xsi is the one I have my eye on.
good price and good stats.

I would also like that canon lense...
macro...
5x life size
:D:D:D

that is a 1000 >>
so I would probably pay about 1800 on a camera and a macro lense.

I need a job >>
Xd
I will get one, actually thinking of working at Sachs piercing place thingy if I can...
as the person at the counter XD
and eventually a piercer :)

but not sure if I have to be 18 cuz of all the needles >>
gr.
.
.
.
I feel less guilty about planning on buying a expensive camera...
I can make a little money on it...
almost no per-photo-cost like a film camera...
I enjoy it...

and dad has found a deal on a car...
so he says he is going to be trying to get me a car [:
I think that is really nice, even if he doesn't get it...
I can see he is trying.

I would have to get the insurance and stuff but hmm :)

anyways, friday :)
staying up late...
maybe jog a bit.

can't wait for Sunday :)
piercing :D:D

okay so I was all excited...
woke up one day, look at my bank and decided...
I want a brow piercing [:
so I was all, ringring...
hey dad, can you take me down there and sign?
he said yes, but not today...
this was tuesday.
He said tomorrow after work.

tomorrow:
ringring...
hey when we going?
well turned out he wasn't working that day... found out in the morning.
so "okay, tomorrow for sure"

tomorrowtomorrow:
ringring...
i'm almost there, get ready.
So I am all ready, and we even bring my birth thingy just in case my ID doesn't work for some shitty reason...
and so we get there, "can I see your ID" -hands-
and your dads's?
WELL...
dad didn't have his ID... lost it... long story short, no piercing today.
ugh

SO
no keva juice for DADDY!
:]
but he felt bad about it...
so says, sunday when he comes by, he will take me and pay for it himself. :)
how nice, so it's all good.

OH
Sachs is having a sale :D
month long!
all piercings (including jewelry) are 22 dollars :D:D:D
so I might get a couple...

here is my list

-brow (fur surz) (free)
-both nipple (probably) (normally 95 dollars, 22 dollars now)
-navel (maybe cuz I would need to shave again and it doesn't look all that great) (normally 45 dollars)
-tongue (most likely, maybe double tongue later on) (normally 55 dollarzzz)
-two surface piercing around my navel, to make it a star (most likely) (normally 85$ EACH! D: )
-one more pair of lobe (probably later) (20$ each professionally)
-cartilage (probably later too, when I have spare money, several wanted) (normally 40 dollars)

:)
so yeah, think i'll get brow... nipples... navel... surface... and MaYbE tongue...
all during the sale.

it will be a handful to clean them all...
more work, but I think i'll like that. :)

okay, need to go feed the lil babies :D
love ya all

thanks dad!
[:

It is so misunderstood. I mean sure, you can use it for sexual means...
but if everyone took off their clothes and stood in a line, we would all look very much alike :)
I like it a lot.

I personally am very happy with my body...
now, before you say something like "oh yeah, you probably have a six pack" or something...
I don't have a "great" body...
maybe not very hot...
not hairless, I DO have hair.

I was reading somewhere awhile ago...
"how to be naked around a lover" or something like that :)
it talked about how all the stuff I believe.
it was very nice to have that book backing me XD
anyways, it talked about how like... if you get an erection, don't try and hide it.
it should be flattering to your partner, it means you are aroused by them :)
maybe not sexually but yeah :)

ALSO
it said, if you can get comfortable with your body where like...
you can just sit naked and read a book and not blink an eye XD
that most people would think it was VERY attractive. :]
I think this is true.

ANYWAYS
[:
I went out to se Wall-E with Jody :D:D:D
SOOOOOOO FUCKING>>>>>C>U>T>E!
:D:D

like... really :D

I love you Jody :]

Okay, so I just burned about 13 years worth of bills and paper work.
in
a
bon-
fire
:D

still have another half box of them :)
that will be later.

Grandpa kept saying it is very... can't remember the word he used, but kinda like...
therapeutic to be burning his past bills...
and his grandson is doing it :D

kinda cool if you think about it :)

Anyways, going to watch the new Stargate SG1 movie :)
in bed
so yeah...

night everyone
<3

So I decided I wanted a little studio :D
so I made one :D
:D
:D
:D
:D



Kinda looks lame :D but it was fun :)
I had a little photo area, a makeup/hair area and a music area :)
took 80 pictures...
35 decent ones...
12 good ones...
5 great ones...
1 REALLY good one :)

The really good one is probably the best I have ever taken of myself :)
If you are interested in looking at the photos go to;
jakejester.deviantart.com
and look at my gallery :)

Thanks <3

-ring ring-
grr
-type blahblahblah-
okay...
-please verify ...-
ugh...
-please hold-
...
...
...
.......
..........
FUCKING been 30 minutes...
I want my fucking 50 bucks back you whore of a bank!
>.>

So yeah, I am waiting right now...
on hold...
in an endless pit of dispair...
and sadness
and unhappies
and evil
and loathing
and Bank of America GRR

So Cali had an earthquake today...
5.8 :)
Jody said he felt it...
and my mom said she was right next to it.
She said it was funny, customers freaking out and running out of the building.

She just crawled under the desk... slowly, cuz she is preggy :)
and her boss was all "look out! pregnant girl under the desk!"
>.>
lmao

SO yeah...
still holding...
>>
fuck you bank...

I got over drawn cuz of fucking amazon ...
they charged me a subscription fee...
for a free month trial >>
wtf
I ACTUALLY read it...
it said that I get a month free..
and if I liked it, THEN i could subscribe >>
and so instead of that happening..
they went ahead and charged me 80 dollars >>

OMG a person :D
bitch voice
grr
...
hhmmm
...

omg she is nice...
black lady :)
OMG
giving me...
50 dollars...
and pointed out another over draw...
taking that off too :D
+85 dollars :D:D:D

I don't fuck you BofA :D
OMFUCKINGGOD
:D:D
she is fucking awesome :D

...wow :D

Well, I am assuming I get to keep all this stuff...
SO!
I would go straight to the technology section :)
grabbing digital cameras...
and iPods...
and xBox 360 :) with games of course...
HD video cameras...
External harddrives...
maybe some CDs...

:)

"Chaos and disorder, all in a line."

:)

I stop and breath. I tell myself, does it really matter?
It helps a lot :]

-kitchen table wisdom

Okay so I was bored and so I decided to mess with my keyboard :)
it was fun, but then I wanted to record it...
and my mic is shitty...
so yeah...

BUT

That got me messing with this music making program :)
and it was fun...
I tried singing like, a background vocal for some songs.
But my voice is sore and cracking.

So THEN
I found the voice effects :D:D:D
so fucking fun!

I have a recording of me using "helium breath" OMFG!
:D

anyways, so then I am on myspace and like...
this gross mexiccano... says "hey sexy" for like...
the fifth time >.>
he looks 12 HAHA
said I asked him his age, he SAYS he is 15.

So we are talking, you can totally tell he is horny off his ass.
I freaking asked him if he was out...
and he said "oh no, I can't drive yet... but you could drive to me... and maybe we could fool around if you want"

W-T-fucking-F
>>

And so then he goes and is all, "how big are you honestly?"
I mean, I have no probelm telling people I am 6 inches...
It is just another body part to me, and I love my body.
It is the sanctuary for my soul and that is nothing to be ashamed about.
But like... just the idea behind it...
him getting off on it.

So I smacked him down :D
he hasn't messaged back haha

I love strange people, they are the confetti in my world :D
Me? you ask what I am in my world?
well!...
I am that big ball of mushy confetti that was having fun in the rain earlier...
but not is regretting it...
CUZ I gots no SOXZ >>
no really >>

Need to do my laundry :]

I don't have a huge phobia, but I don't particularly like ants. I mean they are awesome creatures but I am afraid for them all getting on me. >.>

I understand why I have this fear...

Phobia's are the bodies crude way of preventing something unpleasant from happening again. Even if this thing is perfectly normal, the body will relate similar things with that unpleasant part.

Thus, I once woke up in the morning very itchy. I kept scratching, thinking it was just something dumb. When I finally looked I saw it was hundreds of ants all over my bed. The place I was living at then had a REALLY bad ant problem. >>

This is why I have a fear of ants...
I get itchy all when I see them crawling around me :)

I kinda don't like spring cleaning, but it is weird, once I get started I actually enjoy it.
well I recently moved so I guess that is my spring cleaning, but if I had to give advice on that matter...

If you have not used it in longer than two years, get rid of it. I like to get ride of stuff in a constructive manner, if I can. :)

Poo, I need to clean my room. I kinda let it go, clothes on the floor, books on the everywhere. lolz

 
Hmm, I would probably live in a Motor home, and travel :)
travel a lot :]
with my Boyfriend :D

and I would spend my money making myself and other people happy :)
I like technology so probably buying that a lot.
and donating money to Red Products, cuz all that stuff in Africa really touches me.
Like, I was watching Invisible Children, and I actually CRIED D: 
I was all, wtf.
not a lot of things make me cry...
a short list:
[1] Prolonged serious talks
[2] the movie Why Did I Get Married
[3] Invisible Children
[4] the thought of having a child of my own, and somehow losing them :[
...
and that's all I can think of.
poo...